Going my own way…
So the last couple of months I have been doing a lot of traveling and thinking, and the only thing that really makes sense to me is that when given the option of infinity your decision is really hard. I mean anything is possible and I just have to pick what comes next the trouble is I’m not sure. It is really hard to think your life is going one way and then have the rug pulled out and you are left to really just figure it out. Everyone wants to help and has what they think you should do but really what you need to do is listen to yourself pick a direction and go.
The tough part of picking a direction and going is that as social people we rely on people to give input and support “your plan” and when you go through a huge life shift it is really hard and you want someone to tell you that your next step is right. The problem with that is close members of family and friends when presented with your idea are really looking at it from their life perspective and not yours so really they are not a fair person to ask for reassurance. So really that leaves you to listening to yourself and sometimes second guessing…
I wish that I never went through what I did and that everything would be fine but at the same time I am very happy that I did! In the end I know that I will be a stronger person and no matter what I know I will come out ok. I have learned that I can always go to my family because not only do they love me but will always be there! I have also learned that I have some of the most amazing friends that one person could have! I am so lucky and blessed to know all of them and although I don’t call all the time I know that they know to call whenever they need anything and I will be there for them as they have been for me. I feel that it might be cheesy to say but I feel like I can see clearly now the rain is gone.
As for what is next I’m not quite sure… But that is ok! I know that everything will work out and as I say “what happens, happens” so no big deal. I have been made a contributor to the drinking made easy blog and will be writing a post twice a month for them. I also know that I just need some time for me and I think I am going to take it. I’m going to say right now that due to everything that I have been through I do have times where I just cut people off and want to be alone… I am not mad, sad, or angry with anybody just sometimes it is good to get away from everything and think! I really want to keep up with writing more on this blog and will do my best to do so. I hope you tell your friends and family that you love them often and remember that if you ever come to a split in the road of life don’t panic just go with the one that you feel is the best!
It is funny because one of the bloggers that I know and read often said that for awhile she was like a gypsy and just spent time between places… In a way I can relate in a nomadic way. You almost don’t feel home unless you’re moving. Maybe it is time for a new blog, modern nomad. Well I wish you all the best and to anyone who reads this follow your own path and let no one control your future!
